My Kelly, I do not know how to cope with the idea that you are gone. I cannot put into words the broken heart I carry for you. As much as a person could truly love another, the love i have for you is being filled with hurt. I think about you constantly. There are some things that help me get by, like.... looking back, i remember saying what a good man you were and in the beginning it would make you embarrassed and you would reply, i want to be a good man, recently you were replying to the compliment, " I'm trying to be a better man". with self pride and worth. Also i am grateful that i had the opportunity to whisper in your ear, how you had made my fairy tale dreams come true. I had never thought I could be loved the way you had loved me, I had always thought, that kinda love only existed in fairy tales. I miss laying with my head on you shoulder, breathing you in, telling you how you were my heaven on earth and you would say, thank you for loving me. I am grateful for those moments, and miss them at the same time. When I hear the song by Hunter Hayes "wanted", my heart gets ripped from my chest. That was the way you loved me. I am lost without you. I don 't know how to live. I miss you, I miss the person i was because of you. I was happy and i was loved, I was really loved. You said I could keep you. I don't want to be around anyone. I want to be by myself, I want to dissapear. I want to be with you. It is so hard with out you. I would sell my soul to make these months be a bad dream and have you back, just the way you were. i love you. I